Is Depression a spiritual Attack?

Lately I have been feeling so depressed. All I see is the negativity in my life. I don’t even want to get out of bed. Feels like I am failing at everything. I feel like I am fighting with the devil, and he is mocking me. I have been feeling so low, I know I cannot stay like this. All I can do is surround myself in prayer. I have to keep pushing forward.

I know why now

I think I can finally put a finger to I haven’t been writing lately.  I’ve been feeling kind of blah lately.  I’m not sad, but I’m not happy  either.  It is much easier when I am passionate about something; that where my inspiration comes from.  Lately I just feel so uninspired.  When I do get ideas, I don’t write them down like I should.

I don’t know why…

I don’t know why, but lately I just don’t have the energy to write things.  I get these fragments of ideas, but nothing concrete.  The fact is I’ve always had an on-again off-again relationship with writing.  I hope this doubt doesn’t last.  Maybe me and writing to get divorced.  I hope I get out of this funk.

Suicide is not the answer

19 years ago my brother John committed suicide.  Sometimes I wonder if he would have realized the impact his death would have on our family, would he have gone through with it.  It has been 19 years and it still feels like yesterday.  I remember the next day my mind was still expecting him to walk up that ramp and I would run to the door.  No matter how late John came in the door at night he would always wake me up to give me a big hug.  Before you consider taking your own life, think about how that would make your family feel.